I don't really have anyone to talk to about Diabetes.
I mean of course Daddy and I talk about Big Boy's diabetes, and we have a fantastic consultant and Diabetic care team, but I haven't connected with other parents of children with Diabetes. I know it will be important for BB and even for Top Ender to connect with children in similar positions in the future, but I've been so wrapped up in my own little diabetes bubble that I've just not looked elsewhere.
Today at BritMums Live, I bumped into Jane. Jane's daughter was diagnosed as a Type 1 Diabetic, just a short three months after Big Boy. Other than a few Americans, Jane is the only other person who I know who knows what I'm thinking. Which is probably why I found myself in tears talking to her earlier today.
You see even though it's almost a year since BB has been diagnosed I'm still angry about his diagnosis. Why is my baby the one that has a lifetime of blood tests, injections and other health issues?
Here I am double the weight that a healthy person should be, and apart from the morbidly obese tag I'm as healthy as any person could hope to be. How is that fair?
Of course I know plenty of platitudes about why and I know the medical reasons why and I understand, I really do... But it doesn't stop it being so unfair does it.