Goodbye 2022

When I think back to this year, I of course remember some terrible moments, but I also remember some amazing moments that make this year a very hard year to say goodbye to. Part of me doesn't want to say goodbye to the year and I tried to explain this to a friend earlier this evening but I'm not sure it makes sense. I don't want to say goodbye to 2022, because my Mum was alive in 2022 and I feel like saying goodbye to the year is saying goodbye to her again. Of course, I know it isn't but then again we all know my brain doesn't make sense!

A HIIT Christmas

If you've followed my socials for a while, (and let's face it I've not been very good with keeping the blog updated but my socials tend to be updated fairly often!) then you'll know I attend a HIIT class three times a week, with Milton Keynes most Inspirational Personal Trainer (she won an award, that's not just me saying that!) and that I love it.  I started in July 2021, and quickly became a convert when not only did I see inches and lbs drop off but when I realised that I loved exercising in this way, that I loved working out with weights, that I was building muscle and my body was getting a shape, I was getting toned and... well we won't talk about the endorphins that I get from the exercise and from being with a group of like-minded women! This December I thought I'd be a little, well a little Pippa.

When I Changed My Mind About Pandora

I was never a fan of Pandora Jewellery, mainly because I don't tend to wear much jewellery but also because I find them to be cluttered and that honestly reminds me far too much of my brain, which is almost as bad as my laptop with at least 15 tabs open, two playing clashing music and at least three of them are the same window because I forgot that I'd opened it twice already... However, my Mum had a bracelet, that was covered in charms that she adored and was always buying charms for. She had charms that reminded her of important events, initials for Dan Jon and Top Ender, a Koala for when she went to Australia, charms to mark my niblings being born, Christmas and birthdays and other significant moments that she wanted to remember. When my Mum died, my sister organised it so that the charms would be split between us, each of us getting charms that would remind us of our Mum, our families and of moments that had stood out to our Mum. Having the bracelet, with charms that my Sis

The Hardest Day

I thought that yesterday was going to be the hardest day, but I've said that so many times now. I just need to get through the day that I found out that my Mum died. I just need to get through the day that the cause of death comes back. I just need to get through the day I speak with the Funeral Director. I just need to get through the day of the funeral. I just need to get through the first Mother's Day. I just need to get through my Mum's Birthday without my Mum here. I just need to get through my first Birthday without my Mum here. I just need to get through the first Halloween. I just need to get through the first Christmas... I keep telling everyone, I just need to get through this year. The anniversary of my Mum dying will be the marker. If I'm strong enough to make it through the year then it'll be easier after that. Really, I thought Christmas will be the hardest. Mum loved Christmas and so many of our traditions are tied up in things that we did together, i

Another Apology

It always cracks me up, when I'm reading a blog and then there is an apology post. I'm sorry I haven't written much recently, I've been busy... but I'm back now! Mainly because I'm guilty of the exact same thing and this blog post is an apology post because I really haven't been here much, but I have been on Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and even Tiktok. I realised the other day though, that I like blogging, and I miss not being able to share my thoughts with those who read my ramblings! So I've decided that I need to make blogging a priority again. Over the last few months I've cut back on the amount of volunteering I do, I've made changes to my priorities to make sure that my health and the health of my family is put first and I've been able to spend more time with my family and friends. I've remembered that reading is a big important part of my life, and so I've increased how much I read and because I like learning I'm making su


My birthday is the day after my Mums. I loved this growing up, loved hearing the story of how my Mum went into labour on her birthday. How my Dad was annoyed at her, when her waters broke in their bedroom, all over their newly laid bedroom carpet as he thought she'd peed herself. The story of how it was so hot the day I was born, that the Doctor in charge of my birth gave my Mum ice-cream whilst she was in labour, because he'd had some and she was jealous. The story of how my Mum had been drinking Cider and black the day before to celebrate her birthday, how she was told to drink Guinness to replace her lost iron after I was born. The story of how the day after I was registered, the name of the page 3 stunner was the same name as mine and they weren't sure if this was a good or bad omen.

What We Are Eating W/C 22nd January 2022

Another week, another set of meal plans. I've been being quite bad with meals over the last few weeks, as I've not been very good at eating at meal times. Basically, I quite often don't eat my breakfast until lunch and then I don't eat my lunch and either eat my evening meal with my family or end up going to bed with only having had my breakfast. This isn't good. So this week, I have purchased everything I want and need to make a HUGE salad, which I'll portion out and take to work each day. I even got some Salmon and Prawns to have with it, and as they are my favourite remind me to eat my lunch! Anyway, here's what we're eating this week.