A Mother's Ramblings

It was the middle of the night and Flyfour and I were laying in bed, wide awake and giggling under the covers. I'm sure we aren't the only couple who are often awake together at 3am. For us, it's normally because one of us has gone to check on Dan Jon and has finally come back to bed after an hour of lows, and as we climb back into the warm sanctuary that we call bed, we accidentally disturb the slumber of the other. A short conversation might follow, where we confirm what DJ's blood sugars were, or more often a muttered "need more snooze" but for some reason this pariticular night we were both wide awake.

Recently someone gave me a compliment, although to my ears it wasn't really a compliment. "Who knew you'd be so good at what you're doing!" I wanted to reply back that the people that hired me to do my current job had. They hadn't just decided that it was easier to give me the role than to hire one of the other people who had applied. That they had listened to what I had said during the interview, had looked at my experience and thought about the ideas I had shared and realised I was a good choice... even though I'm still not sure I believe that.

It's Top Ender's 17th Birthday today and I've tried to think of something to tell you about her, that I haven't already told you before. I mean, you already know she is kind and caring, funny and beautiful. You know she is smart and courageous and loving and giving. I'm not sure there is anything I haven't told you about her. So instead, I will say Happy Birthday Top Ender.

A new year, a new start and I really need to think what our February challenge is going to be. We did joke about an alphabet challenge but I'm not sure I can pull that one off! You might notice a lot of veggie meals on the menu this week... hopefully, the family won't notice and moan but I'm fed up of eating meat so everyone can live my preferred diet this week!

I've been thinking about resolutions a lot since September. To me, it's September that is the start of the year, thanks to years of British Schooling, my own children being in the Britsh school system and of course now working in a School. September is when the new notepads come out, when I start taking stock of what I have (or haven't!) achieved, thinking about what I want to achieve and having a little bit of a trial run before I actually set my goals for the year in January. I've come up with a few things that I want to achieve in 2021, I'm not sure if they are really resolutions they are more a mix of short and long term goals but I know that these four areas that I'm focusing my efforts in are the areas which will help me to be the me that I want to be, that they will smooth off my rough edges (or maybe give me some!) and help me to be better.

Flyfour and I started thinking together about our word of the year a couple of weeks back. One of our evening walks was peppered with one or the other of us suddenly exclaiming a word and then continuing on with whatever conversation we were having and pretty soon it spilt over into us just shouting random words at each other waiting for the others approval or a reason as to why that word wasn't any good. We knew what we wanted our word to mean.