The Yummy Mummy with No Tummy Challenge - Week Twenty-Three
I've been thinking this week. Its a dangerous habit, but one I haven't ever been able to kick. I think that if I could I would live inside me head, but I know that it is selfish and dangerous so I won't try it (for extended periods of time anyway).
I have been thinking about what stops me from doing what I want to do, what I need to do in order to lose weight. And the answer didn't surprise me at all.
You see it isn't that I don't want to or that I can't. It's not that I don't have the time or even the tools. It's not that I am lazy (although I am sure that I am!). Its the same problem that causes me to want to follow the Flylady system for keeping my home clean.
My internal voice says to me "If it isn't going to be prefect then why even bother?" and that internal voice isn't the Still Small Voice that tells me that I am loved by a Heavenly Father... this one is a mean internal voice.
When I realised this it all suddenly became clear. I knew what it is that I have to do. I know now that I was setting myself up to fail by attempting so much. Its not like I didn't know to set small goals, but for some reason it hadn't registered until yesterday.
I have set up an alarm on my IPod Touch that at 12:30 when Baby Boy has a sleep I have a two 15 minutes periods of exercise. Thats it. If I walk to town in the week or do more than my 30 minutes total each day then that is fine.
So maybe next week I will lose more than the 1lb that I lost this week!