I don't feel like me today - A Poem

I've had a few words rolling through my mind over the last few weeks. Words that I once thought could be a poem and I wrote down, but they didn't quite seem right. I've had another bash at them over the last few days and I hope that if I share them with you now that maybe you'll read them and understand the feeling I was trying to convey.

Just so you know this isn't how I feel right now, I've just had these words circling and needed to get them out.

My laptop and tea in the garden

And if not, maybe you'll just think it's pretty or something.

I don't feel like me today

I don't feel like me today.
I feel like the little girl that I used to be,
The one I thought I had left behind.

I don't like the rules that someone else has made,
I was tricked and didn't know what I picked,
those rules have put me at a disadvantage.

I don't want to play this game any more,
It's just not fair, I'm sure of it.
I don't like the hand that I've been dealt.

One day I'll look back and laugh how I felt this way.
Forgetting just how bad I feel today.
But for now I don't feel like me today.